Lately I have been thinking allot about us. When I told you I always wanted to be there for you whenever you needed me. But I got a new prospective on this. To be there for you all the time can also mean not to be there. I’m still there for you. Just not physical, but I’m still there. This is what we both want. To be there for you before was to be there in person so you had someone to lean on. I couldn’t understand how you could possibly not want to be with me. But I finally do. You need to figure this one out yourself. I’m not mad or angry nor am I sad. I’m happy for finally understanding. Not for the fact that we are not together as a couple. But for the fact that you will be happy as well and I know you will come to the best solution for us alone. I won’t stop trying. But this time I’ll do it quietly. So we both get the time to do the things we want. It’s not about how much love you give to a person its how you give it. You know I’ll be there for you and I know you are there for me as well. Doing the right thing sometimes can be so difficult, but this time it doesn’t feel that hard or complicated. I’m sorry baby that I didn’t figure out this sooner when we tried again. I’m truly am sorry for not understanding how you wanted to try again in your way, by not being but still trying. I can’t say I’m leaving you, because I’m not. I still love you and you are my heart. And this is the way I show it to you. By being there for you by not being there. I hope I’m not to late.

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