It doesn’t matter how many people you have around you that loves you. When the one you keep so close to your heart is so unsure about what she wants. I wish I could push the forward button on my remote and get the answers more quickly. I know this is not an option and everyone have to live trough the pain I have right now. Life is sometimes so sad but those sad moments makes you stronger. Some things about us is just not right and the things that are, well they just doesn’t matter right now. That’s why I have to be strong, not for only myself but for what might come for us or not. I know, so deep inside… If we are meant to be, we will find our course back. Right now I can’t feel it but I still want it to work. Somehow. I know what is about to happen is an necessary step to take even its so freaking painful. I wish that all this pain will go away and one day we will be happy ever after. Because that’s just exactly what I want. Forever and ever. But just not right now, but in the future. |